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22.8.2011

2011-08-21T09:46:00.001-07:00

Life Just Begin Changes everything ... This is the chance. Good Luck Jackie .. jia you .. I believe i can do it . . Just Go On .

19.5.2011

2011-05-19T11:55:00.000-07:00

This is all bullShit = )

03.05.2011

2011-05-02T01:28:00.000-07:00

到现在今日今时我还是有一样的感觉. 你还是一样的对待我. 我很想问我是多余的?还是什么代替品?还是玩偶? 朋友? 还是什么哦? 真心？假意 ? 对你还是很多的疑问完全相信不到你没有任何的信任. 我尽力了. 难堪. 我要离开了 = )

07.04.2011

2011-04-07T03:46:00.000-07:00

我觉得开始累了 , 我有点不知道怎么面对你....

我看着那个keychain 电话吊饰。。。觉得很开心=)

但是...我还是有那种就...想问你. 你真的一五一十没瞒着我一样东西?

还是对你不信任. 别怪我>.> 我就是有这感觉...

明显的你有改变... 我还会有对你保留....

今天你说 “ 老公 " 的时候会瞄着我 ? 顿时我就觉得有问题... 我很坚强的什么都不问...但是这感觉真的很难受... 是代表着某个人? =)

心情低落...还是要做回很坚强的我...

真的很没心情-.- 很想发泄... 对不起...

1.4.2011

2011-03-31T08:05:00.000-07:00

Say byebye? =)

.....

31.3.2011

2011-03-31T05:11:00.000-07:00

就算我心里真的很不爽但是我只道那个问题 -.- 我还是收在自己的心里咯 -.- 逼自己别发脾气控制 - - 明知道就是这样你说不习惯哦? 我能怎样? 逼你? 你开心就好了= =

27.3.2011

2011-03-27T09:35:00.000-07:00

我的头脑一直都有那个问题的存在- - 不是不信..但是我觉得很困扰...

29.6.2010

2010-06-28T17:35:00.000-07:00

好久没回来了...

今天突然的有那种感觉..在几个月前..这感觉已离去..我以为不会那么快的回到之前那样..没想到吧.. 突然的又有那感觉..

在这段期间..有伤心,不服气,不甘愿,无辜,无奈,当然也会有开心的时候...

也有了大家的陪伴..我再也不觉得一个人...也不再会觉得很孤独..

人生總會碰到挫折,但那決不是生命的盡頭,而是提醒你該轉彎了。。

如果说我真的快离开了这个地方。。我还真的不舍得.. =(

虽然说不上是很好很合的朋友 ..但是至少大家也一起经历过～

也会有翻脸,吵架,不开心,不爽,气愤.. 我有时大声的和你说话,也大声的骂你...

如果你明白为什么我这样对你...你不会讨厌我吧? =)

你让我回想到之前15 16 17 岁的Jackie .. 真的90%很像..

不过那时的我一开始进入所谓的社会..

还有的就是你...我来了这里..

你也帮了我不少..我添了蛮多麻烦给你的 >.>

大家经历的都不同..来自不同的家庭背景..

能聚在一起,一个时期,也就是缘分的安排=)

每个人都有自己背后的处境,家家有本难念的经...

16.02.2010

2010-01-15T12:16:00.000-08:00

让人欺负到我哦的头上! = = 我却什么都做不到= =

还被他取笑zzzz

11.1.2010

2010-01-10T13:11:00.000-08:00

快乐的时光真的真的过的别开生面..

无意中看到之前的一些video ..

我只能说- - 很好笑 xD 哈哈哈

笑过就算了...

是时候收拾心情。。面对会现实...

这世界充满了人类的杰作,所有的一切..

怎么都没什么心情的...

还是一样的觉得很孤独- -

这里就是刚刚看到的video .. 都过去的～

02.01.2010

2010-01-02T07:31:00.001-08:00

Blog updating .................................... .

2010.1.1

2010-01-01T13:39:00.000-08:00

a new year ~ and wish have a new life ~

but .. today i Very fucked up ...

Cause ... my house that those 4 female ...

really brainless and don know use brain to think .. even older or elder zzz

all also same .. o stay at home and see them face .

i really hate them zzzzz...

ppl said : Home is the ,ost COMFORTABLE PLACE..

For me ? Hell nO !

I don like staying at home and see them's face .. its make me all the time frustrated zzz ..

this world have so many human .. but i don know why this 4 female those attitude ..

immoral , impolite, don know respect ppl m wont think about ppl feeling , wont think about other ppl zzz

i will leave this place again and Go for my llife . U this 4 bloody b1tch always make me frustrated

I am Life with Myself , No family member For my whole life now on .

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i hope get a person who can care me ... i need love .. .. Feel So isolated ..

25.12.2009

2009-12-25T02:58:00.000-08:00

bla bla ~ boring xmas lol~ and boring life ~ Soon .. 2009 going to End ~

Say bYe to 2009 ? Welcome 2010 =)

10.12.2009

2009-12-09T12:48:00.000-08:00

或许是对的....过了一段时间....我还在有那犹豫...但不会像之前..看到快乐的你咯~希望你快乐的下去.

还是会想你..但是不能回头.你的坚持我明了..收拾了这段... 再见~

10.11.09

2009-11-09T12:07:00.000-08:00

什么是你每天都会做的最重要事情? 没做到你就会后悔..

这对我来说..如果真的没做。。我会后悔..

我还是会问你今天过得好不好..

就算是一分钟..一份信息..

你不理我也好..

我还是希望你过得好..

I miss you .

Lies- Big bang

28.10.09

2009-10-28T09:06:00.000-07:00

when ppl saying something to " attacking " me .. i don know why i cant be silence ..

and i always want to say back them ..

i weak jor ma ? i keep ask myself ..

aiz ..

dOn mind so much la .. i know nto 1st time but .. is everyday .. zzz

22.10.09

2009-10-22T08:08:00.000-07:00

2009.10.23

我放弃了..不会再打扰你..这样你至少会比较快乐吧.. T_T 我这次真的哭了很多次..

谢谢你让我爱过..

爱一个人真的好难..< ?

我不信..我觉得好好的去爱你所爱的人让他快乐..

最后一次...我爱你

你听见了吗。。？ngo oi lei ... T______T
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20.10.09

2009-10-19T11:27:00.000-07:00

刚才..遇见了一个很久很久没见的朋友 (Ah guan )..就和他聊了起来..

无意中就谈到我..他看了我一眼就说：“ Jackie 你很犹豫，烦恼,是不是有什么麻烦了? "

我什么都没说..坐着不说话。。静静的..

然后..眼泪很不自禁的流了下来..

过了一阵子。。我就开始和他说..

关于家人方面和全部..

I cried ..

again ..

hahas ..

he say ..

Jackie u are so degil ..

i don know why now just feel keep crying ..

i really .. really .. Want make all better then before .. I don know why cant ..

he told me ..

Jackie ..

U don cry .

That's useless ..

Make it work .

No matter before how bad how wrong is u all also the past ..

Do it .. Appriciate The oppoturnity ..

don Lost it ..

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无论身边有怎样最好的朋友..

最终还是那个爱你的人..会一直给你机会..

当机会来了..就要真的真的争取..别然他溜走..

后悔莫及..

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如果当发生真的很大的障碍..

第一个出来帮你的人一定是最爱你的人..

无论是家人还是..

朋友都帮不了多少..

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原来哭真的真的很伤身.. 别哭了好吗Jackie ..

我要怎么才能阻止我的泪..

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203days ..

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好了..是时候脱离现在的状况..

走出现在的你..别这么轻易放弃..

人生之路难之行..

Jackie Neoh Kin Wah .. Go for it ..

09.09.09

2009-09-08T13:13:00.001-07:00

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。你了解女孩吗?请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，
你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。

请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，
哪怕，没有道谦。

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很有意思- - 对我很有帮助谢谢了

18.8.09

2009-08-17T14:04:00.000-07:00

我不明白..为什么当人家给意见的时候就不尝试去接受? 然而选择逃避....避开..?

如果认为别人说的不对..难道就不能对证?

沟通....了解...判断...分析......

这就是个人的想法吧=)

宽容是一种伟大的行为..是矛盾?还是什么....?

12.08.09

2009-08-11T12:42:00.000-07:00

经历过某些东西才会明白，才会发觉到其中的奥妙。。

如果你爱他,你就不会介意之前和过去。

你会尝试和她一起努力下去 =)

我不是最好的那个..但是我是那一个。。肯努力的。。。

08.07.09

2009-07-08T08:51:00.000-07:00

... i feel upset..

feel sad...

miserable ..

what can i do ? ...

i always try to do better .. but .. i cant make it ...

2009-06-08T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hidden Secret Meaning Of My Name

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

28.05.09

2009-05-28T07:25:00.000-07:00

I abit Down today .. this kind of thing i before also meet i met this all before . but ... today it's happen to me again .

may be i too over friendly or what . like anyone bullying me ...

i just don wish to always want to treat ppl like that ..

Since Like that to treat me .. i now will 180c Changes.

Totally Change to other ppl .

How u treat me . then how am i treat u back =)

....

i wont help anyone to decide anything else . do it urself . don admit me .

...

25.5.09

2009-05-24T10:57:00.000-07:00

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lougong..
- | LoNeLy | - *|~[Jackie] + |` _a[k]a_ღJackie02050ღ rOyaLJamMeR ShIsHeNxJackiex 孤独的音乐使者 † 弑神の音乐使者 † 打不死の战神 says:
en.
:[✖｡Ӛ r iεじ｡✖:[↘【x艾黎儿a.k.a坏蛋の鱼x】: + :傻佬ςui |ou ♥ Stay Strong D: http://ariel--xiiaoyu-lifestyle.blogspot.com/ | = says:
i wan to say here tat b4 how i done on u..or wat did i did mistake n so on..i hope u 4get it..u got me..and i always by ur side to cheer u up
:[✖｡Ӛ r iεじ｡✖:[↘【x艾黎儿a.k.a坏蛋の鱼x】: + :傻佬ςui |ou ♥ Stay Strong D: http://ariel--xiiaoyu-lifestyle.blogspot.com/ | = says:
even tot i duno reli ur problem at least im stil the 1 stand for u
:[✖｡Ӛ r iεじ｡✖:[↘【x艾黎儿a.k.a坏蛋の鱼x】: + :傻佬ςui |ou ♥ Stay Strong D: http://ariel--xiiaoyu-lifestyle.blogspot.com/ | = says:
i duno taLk Sweetness
:[✖｡Ӛ r iεじ｡✖:[↘【x艾黎儿a.k.a坏蛋の鱼x】: + :傻佬ςui |ou ♥ Stay Strong D: http://ariel--xiiaoyu-lifestyle.blogspot.com/ | = says:
i just could say hornest..loyality to u
:[✖｡Ӛ r iεじ｡✖:[↘【x艾黎儿a.k.a坏蛋の鱼x】: + :傻佬ςui |ou ♥ Stay Strong D: http://ariel--xiiaoyu-lifestyle.blogspot.com/ | = says:
Don force urself to hard..every1 have their own time to be moody
:[✖｡Ӛ r iεじ｡✖:[↘【x艾黎儿a.k.a坏蛋の鱼x】: + :傻佬ςui |ou ♥ Stay Strong D: http://ariel--xiiaoyu-lifestyle.blogspot.com/ | = says:
i do. but please..never think negatively.

17.5.09

2009-05-16T10:33:00.000-07:00

admirer ...

i also don know why so much ...

but all those admirer not my ownself wish to have ..

But ..

My Heart is always to be with u ..

Sorry to make u Jealous .. Make u feel uncomfortable .. Like no " An Quan gan "

....

I promised .. i will sek u more from now ..

i wont let u feel u are alone .. Like the song >>> Shayne Ward - you're not Alone

I Love de is ur person ...

no ppl is 100% perfect pretty ...

u say 1st u wanna see de is me ...

I Just have 1 word ... Is .. Soon..

I Love you ..

8.5.09

2009-05-06T09:08:00.001-07:00

又在一次的有那种感觉。。

判若两人。。

在我前面就不同的对待，在别人面前又变成另外一种。。

我不相信你是这种人。。虽然不是很明显的。。但是就已近是开始了。。

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nothing to write ... not in the mood ..

haiz -.-

26.04.09

2009-04-26T07:37:00.000-07:00

有时候就会觉得会有一种。。好像只存在一个幻影世界。。。

但是有试着去逃出那个幻影世界。。

就永远都逗留在那里。。。

我最不喜欢这感觉。。。

但是现在却又会有这感觉。。。

也不知道怎么说。。

这感觉也不怎么好受。。

这是麻痹的。。怎么又会这样。。- -

23.04.09

2009-04-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

.04
.电脑白痴与电脑黑客的对话
黑客：我控制了你的电脑
小白：怎么控制的？
黑客：用木马
小白：......在哪里？我没看不见
黑客：打开你的任务管理器
小白：......任务管理器在哪？
黑客：......你的电脑下面！！
小白：“我的电脑”里面没有啊
黑客：算了，当我什么也没做过

黑客：我已经控制了你的电脑
小白：哦
黑客：害怕了吧？！嘿嘿
小白：来的正好，帮我杀杀毒吧，最近我的机子毛病很多耶
黑客：......

小白：你怎么总是在我电脑里随便进进出出
黑客：你可以装防火墙
小白：装防火墙，你就不能进入了吗？
黑客：不啊，我只是想增加点趣味性，这样控制你的电脑让我觉得很白痴耶

小白：听说你会制造“病毒”？！
黑客：嗯
小白：你可以控制别人的电脑？！
黑客：一般是的
小白：那你可以黑掉那些网站吗？
黑客：当然，没听到人家叫我“黑客”吗？
小白：。。。。哦~~~`我还以为那是因为你长得很黑......
“咣~~”

黑客：我又来了！！
小白：你天天进来，不觉得很烦吗？
黑客：是很烦，你的机子是我见过的最烂的一台了
小白：不是吧，这可是名牌
黑客：我是说你的机子里除了弱智游戏就只有病毒了
小白：哦~~那你看到我的“连连看”了吗，不记得装在哪，找了好久了耶
黑客：......再见

黑客：嗨~~~我来了！
小白：好几天不见你，被我的防火墙挡住啦？
黑客：哈哈，笑话，上你的机子比我自己的还容易，不是想我了吧
小白：我是想请你帮一个忙
黑客：什么事？
小白：你能不能进入电力系统修改一点数据
黑客：......你想干嘛！！
小白：求求你，帮我把我家这个月的电费消了吧......
黑客：去死！！

黑客：你死哪去了？！！！
小白：......出去玩了几天啊，找我干嘛
黑客：我要找点东西
小白：在我这儿找什么东西？
黑客：病毒，找一条前几年的老病毒，只有你的机子上病毒保存的最全啦

黑客：我来了！！
......
黑客：怎么不说话？
小白：心情不好
黑客：谁欺负你了？
小白：我的一个Q号搞丢了，里面有我的网上初恋
黑客：这个简单，我帮你拿回来
小白：拿不回来了
黑客：不可能，告诉我，多少号？
小白：呜~~~~就是不记得了

小白：你给我出来！！！！
黑客：怎么啦？！
小白：你是不是用我的ID去论坛玩了？！！
黑客：......不好意思，忘了告诉你了，不过，我没干坏事，就瞎编了个贴子，我保证下次再也不玩了
小白：那不行！！！
黑客：你还要怎么样？
小白：你发的贴子得红脸了耶，我第一次得红脸，好开心哦，你必须再给我编一个
黑客：倒！

黑客：嘿嘿，刚才我做了一件很有趣的事
小白：什么事
黑客：我到论坛上去顶贴了
小白：这很平常啊
黑客：我见贴就顶，尽情的骂楼主是猪，好解气
小白：哇塞，太过瘾了，我可从来不敢，会被封杀的！
黑客：没错，已经被封杀了。
小白：这还有趣？！
黑客：是啊，因为我用的是你的ID

小白：你是高手吗？
黑客：可以说是吧。
小白：高到什么程度？
黑客：嗯，我无聊的时候就自己黑自己
小白：哈，这个我也会！
黑客：#￥%！你也可以？！
小白：是啊，一关机它就黑了......
黑客：滚！

哈哈－－炸到－－

22.04.09

2009-04-21T09:05:00.000-07:00

这世界就是这样。。有来有去。。。

但是有些东西。。。就像一首歌里面的歌词。。。5566的。。。我难过。。。

失去的不会重来。。

都不知道要怎样去解释。。。也真的很多东西都解释不到。。

就算问为什么。。。也未必有完整的答案。。。

有些东西。。。我们所看到的未必是真真的画面。。。后面还隐藏着某些原因之类的东西。。。

其实我都在想。。。最近怎么没什么好事写的。。都是不怎么开心的= =

我是怎么了？

21.04.09

2009-04-21T03:16:00.001-07:00

QQ - 1016109217

14.04.09

2009-04-14T03:16:00.000-07:00

给傻婆的话。。

如果就因为这样小事而就闹到大家都不理睬到家。。甚至要吵架？

这样值得吗？。。。不过。。你是成熟的。。。

我明白你的心情。。。但是没做错。。什么都没做。。。说出来也是不要有误会。。

^^ 信任对每个人每件事都很重要。。。

10.04.09

2009-04-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

有时候有些人就只会顾着自己的感受。。。而。。。就会一时忽略了别人的感受。。

而在那么多人里，我们就是会有机会做那个被忽略的人

而我也就是其中一个 T_T

人家说习惯成自然＝＝？

不过也是觉得是这样～

有些东西是解释不到。。然而。。我也不会问为什么 =)

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

recently headpain about something - -

those thing cant so easy to solve..

you tot u do like that then ppl will don know what are you doing ar?

infront me other face..

then other side not same face ..

this kind of ppl i not 1st time to meet also ..

reallytot i am so easy to play ar - -?play with me ? lol

u mao main dengan me ?

i still didnt do anything cause i still treat u as " Friend "

i belum do anything else until now =)

better sendiri get more attention lol

if i want do anything ar .. very simple saja =)

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suipo ar suipo !

don keep luan luan think thing jor ar ~

sayang sayang xD

2.4.09

2009-04-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

人是有情绪的是很正常的，但别被情绪控制了你。

appreciate what u have now before its too late .

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4w2NZeV-XIw&feature=PlayList&p=2988EB915D8D6ED0&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_MxPPgWjlX0&feature=related

八月中秋山林凉，
风吹大地草枝摆，
甘霖老母赶羚羊，
来年羊毛超级卖，
草枝摆啊赶羚羊，
赶羚羊啊草枝摆，
庭院织芭为君开，
都籣山晓金桔摆，
天摇地动舟渡岚，
呜呼甘霖老迹埋，
金桔摆啊老迹埋，
老迹埋啊金桔摆。

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

19.3.2009***

2009-03-18T11:29:00.000-07:00

19.3 wor ~

Birthday jor ar ~~

又老一岁咯～

进入2 的世界~

20岁了～

首先要谢谢的是～～～我的小可爱猪猪dear >> BaBy_TeaRz

谢谢你陪我一起过生日^^

来照片代言时间～

dear.. when we 1st time meet we already be couple jor ..

at start .. i treat u a cold cold dei .. ... cause that we slowly to know each other ..

then now no cold jor ~ everyday also hot ~ haha xD

thx u pei me pass my bday =)

Already be O2Jam Top 1 ranking ~ Next Target ~ XDO top 1 ranking =x

Do u all think i can ? lol haha xD

and here .. Thx To all my fren ~ That wish me de .. Thx to all tou dai ~

Johnzaixp,Shinmashimaro,ShinAsakurahao,ShinLorenz,Kinchoong

And all my buddy Thx u all ..

14.03.09

2009-03-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永遠不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的。

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解自己。

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死而是我就站在你面前，你卻不知道我有多愛你。

世界上最遙遠的距離不是我就站在你前面，你卻不知道我有多愛你，而是明明知道彼此相愛，卻無法信任對方。

真正愛你的人，是懂得保護你照顧你關心你，而不是傷害你。

10.03.09

2009-03-10T08:05:00.001-07:00

人生里。。。其中一样最难的事件是什么？对我而言。就是 " 选择,决定"

没办法也要作决定 - -...

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I already Done what i can do .

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updated new song .

04.03.09

2009-03-03T13:38:00.000-08:00

Don even Think i am The person who don know ?

U really Think i what also Don know? Are You?!

Real Heart ? What are u expecting u Get And continue Like this?

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Aiz... I know What to do but didnt means i know the way to walk ...

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09年2月份再见，09年3月份你好….

=)

28.2.09

2009-02-28T06:14:00.000-08:00

When a person should be spoken with, and you don't speak with them, you lose them. When a person shouldn't be spoken with and you speak to them, you waste your breath. The wise do not lose people, nor do they waste their breath.

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beggers couldn't choose what they wanted to eat

beggars must not give what what they wan to eat...just change the tactics

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When it is obvious that the goals cannot be reached, don't adjust the goals, adjust the action steps.

not sure why u want to backwards u only lost a game

in future u have much more to lose

how many times u wan backs?

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The superior man does not set his mind for anything or against anything; what is right he will follow.

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18.2.09

2009-02-17T14:56:00.000-08:00

有好阵子没update了= = ~ 今天~ 第4天没睡了~ 为什么不睡啊？因为我怕我睡了后就很难起身~所以就没睡==

4天没睡就在情人节那天开始吧。。= =

今年的情人节我并不是一个人了。。因为有你陪伴我度过这么一个特别的情人节~

然后。。。我的新年是怎样过的？新年- -？和前4年开始一样~。。都没去拜年的== 红包。。。不必说。。没拜年哪来的红包？。。不过我还是和去年做一样的东西。。就是吃roti canai = =

日子也没什么改变。。还是一样。。

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未来的没有人会知道。。我答应了你陪你走下去这路程。。

就不会让你一个人。。

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今天seankhoo 从KL来找我~ 哈哈- - 槟城~

还请了我吃海鲜~ xD

thanks you Seankhoo~

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两个人相处不一定是看外表。。而是各自的“ 心 ” 以心对待

开始了新的路线。。一步一步的走着。。

02.02.2009

2009-02-01T13:07:00.000-08:00

[give unexpectedness is better than what is expected]

so...now even meet high class or low class is nothing for u.for some info not for show off..... recently communicate with the rich people from Brunei.......is example for u...no matter how Ur background most important Ur attitude and knowledge and character...u can be standard.

talk is cheap ,action is granted...better with surprise..

21.1.09

2009-01-20T12:34:00.000-08:00

what am i doing recently ?

i am Just Fuking RETARDED..........

aiz...

Nothing much to Write for this New Beginning of the Years...

buu...

有没有人可以关心我。。= =？

有时候我想找个人陪我也难。。= =

等待着一个新的开始。。

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郭静 - 下一个天亮

作词：姚若龙

作曲：陈小霞

专辑：下一个天亮

用起伏的背影挡住哭泣的心
有些故事不必说给每个人听
许多眼睛看的太浅太近
错过我没被看见那个自己

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

时间可以磨去我的棱角
有些坚持却永远磨不掉
请容许我小小的骄傲
因为有你这样的依靠

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

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每次听完这首歌都会想起某些东西。。某个人。。你的样貌。。你的笑容。。

其实。。我硬着和自己说放弃。。但是。。。还办不到。。努力中。。

人是会变的。。但是那个"心"是不会这么变的。。

希望你快乐- -

只想和你说。。我是24小时的忠实听众 =)

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没有了你们的陪伴真的觉得日子很难过。。= =

说长不长。。说短不短。。都一年多了。。

有点放不下的。。但是没办法。。环境得不允许下。。。逼不得已。。。

对不起。。。不过。。你们会很快就知道。。什么事情将发生。。。

该来的就会自然的来。。。躲也躲不了。。。

我会记得这个名字你们给我的。。 “ 打不死的战神”..

我在想。。我有没有那么厉害= =？这个名字好像。。。。。

我向我还没有到这个层度吧。。哈哈。。。

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A ppl will find u if they want to find u .

A fOrce or beg is useless even you see them will only Hate.

Let it Natural.

To Love or To be Love ?

29.12.08

2008-12-28T15:08:00.000-08:00

“ 以前我看到朋友哭我很羡慕，可是我怎么逗我自己怎么弄我自己我的眼泪都流不出，总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福，能够把满腔的无奈满腔的痛苦让泪水带走。。。“

“ 最苦是泪水啃在心头流不出，就像要爱却不懂怎么去爱。。要自己哭过后才明白。。流过泪的眼睛将生命看得更清。。楚。。。只有真正懂得付出的人才懂得何为哭为何哭。。

再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱，心会痛，心也会感动~。。只有曾经真心付出的人才懂得何为哭为何哭“

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有时候，明明知道爱上那个人是个错，却还是死心踏地地爱了！

有时候，明明知道自己这样做是不好，却还是执迷不悟的做了！

有时候，明明知道他的心已不在你这，却还是心肝情愿的把心给了！

有时候，明明知道这条路很艰辛，却还是跌跌撞撞的过了！

有时候，明明知道自己的心在难过，还是勉勉强强的笑了！

有时候，明明知道他已经不在爱你了，却还是习惯性的写信息给他了！

有时候，明明知道自己不能再这样下去了，却还是不由自主的哭了！

有时候，明明知道这份爱不能再继续了，却还是把心留给他了！

这，就是爱情的模样－－其实去喜欢一个人也是一种学习，不对吗？

如果真心付出，就该无遗憾，才算真正的。在年轻的时候，你一定要温柔对待你的爱情，因为在年老时，你酱只会记得这温柔其实爱你的心没变过~

不知道你还爱我吗？还是你的心里有了另一个你心爱的人呢?～～～……………～～～

用尽一生的爱换来一生的伤有时即使无奈人生却是悲哀痛苦紧跟身边欢喜却不到来难道注定失败永远没有未来终于开始明白爱一个人好难你觉得呢？

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知道什么叫思念，原来，思念就一种可以让人莫名其妙地掉下眼泪的力量..

有一种幸福是有一个能让你不顾一切去爱"他"一辈子的人。

有一种幸福是有一个能让你不顾一切去爱"她"一辈子的人。

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28.12.08

2008-12-27T13:59:00.000-08:00

本来已经对自己说好的。。。要结束的。。。

我问了... :"你有没有骗我..?"

你答了说没有... 在我和你的谈话中... 我不知不觉的说出了我的感受= =

或许是我心软吧..?

我对我自己说过真的要放弃的... 但是我到最后还是做不到...

就因为这几个字...

i
don
want
to
lose
you

我就放不下..= =

我问我自己我这样做对吗? ..

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最近的生活真得很辛苦....

我终于再也硬撑不下去了.....

我打了电话给我的爸... 想要求他帮我的...

但是他没接....

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既然你们选了这条路... 就希望你们不要后悔对我所作的一切 =D

17.12.2008

2008-12-16T12:51:00.000-08:00

tOday .. 16.12.08 is biibiik4r0 [shin]Alikato aKa Thiam Kee's Birthday

then ... today i Keep 2 more Tou dai =D

1 is Lorenz then 1 moe is Wengui..

So .. all i have is 6 bOy Officially tou dai xD

ok here the list of my toudai :

XDO O2Jam

1st :[Shin]Mashimaro aKa biibiimaro

2nd : Kinchoong aKa kinchoong

3rd :[Shin]Asakurahao aKa LHM5566

4th : JohnzaixP aKa JohncOw

5th WenGui aKa DeathGuiseFF

6th : [Shin]Lorenz aKa ----

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So here is the Story Of the Day ...

the charather of the days is ..

[shin]Asakurahao , [Shin]Lorenz , [Shin]Mashimaro , [Shin]Alikato, [Shin]Jackie --- > that's me - - , JohncOw , Kinchoong , Sushio , Haseo , Wengui , NscLucky --> Biibiik4ro's GF ,

today is biibiik4ro birthday planned To 电话饭店 (dian hua fan dian ) tO having

dinner at there... after that .. we all back to cyber cafe ( NeT StudiO ) at seri

petaling ..

After That my fren .. Seankhoo give Proposition tO going " Look Out Point " we called that place name in chinse is 小云顶 .. but .... Very pity ... when we reach That place .. that Gasoline is already close ... aiz ... and then we all discuss at there .. discuss to going where .. Many suggestion during that time lol .. got .. go Genting la ... gO sunway europia .... lol ... but at last .. we decided to go McDonald at taman connaught there ... But .. half way ... We change Other place again xD ... So .. going where ? ... haha .. The Most i Loved place xD >>> A&W .... sO we went to Near Ss15 Sunway pyramid there de ..

Lol .. i dare to say .. those all ppl at A&W there Almost all masuk hospital ... LOL LMAO ROFL HAHA ..

why ? Cause we all at there keep " Teasing " Each other Lol..

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today .. is the Day I at KL most happy de 1 day ... i really didnt laugh like that already .. 4 years jor .. thx to u all .. i appreciate it .. thx .. >.<

And Wish Biibiik4ro and Alikato thiam Kee Happy Birthday ..

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Is time to Full Stop ... Next time i write blog .. is about end of this years ...

13.12.2008

2008-12-12T16:07:00.000-08:00

few days ago ... i argue with 1 of my bestfriend ...

i didnt means to ... but .. already happen .. cant do anything already ... =/

i appreciate all the thing u teach me ... all the moments we together ..

i asked ... we still got chance to be friend again ? ur answer is ........... No ..

i still ..

i didnt means to do that .. serisously .... the ppl most i trust is euu ...

After that day .. i almost lost all the hope ...

i don know what to say about it ...

Just .. i very appreciate those moments we together .. ....

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look Likes .. every end of the year ... i so unfortunately ...

Just Lost my wallet last few days .. somemore that day is my tou dai birthday .. =(

haiz... sO unlucky geh ...

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信用。。。价值。。。

04.12.08

2008-12-03T17:06:00.000-08:00

hmmm almost 1 month didnt update ...

aiz..after that i marry at xdo .. i terus no play =.=

cause of ... i don know play for apa =.= like no 目标...

err don misunderstanding something lol ...

seriously ... when i go Net studio . then login my acc...

then open pc .. then next step i sure say ..

no game play =.=

haha... may be too sien jor with PC .. of facing computer

O2Jam .. quitted ..

devil may cry 4 .. also stop play = =

Just open Pc Then Listen Trance, Club mix , HardStyle , and etc song

Then

1st thing to do sure is >>>> Forum.lowyat.net

2nd is windows live messenger = =

then open songs

then don know do what already =.=

just sit there see other ppl play game =.=

Sometimes i Login Xdo ... Then right click profile .. saw ur name ( Qq_Honeybb ) .. then i reliaze u told me ur home line cutted =.= then i ALT + F4 =.= really didnt play xD

So damn unlucky .. let ppl wat 9 me steal moeny again .. zzz i am innocent for fuk sake !

I DON CARE U SAW THIS OR NOT ... I THAT DAY IF SERIOUSLY MAD .. U ALREADY DIE AT THAT TIME I TELL U !! DON TRY MY PATIENT ZZZZZ

pLS cHECK cLEARLY BEFORE U DECIDED ... - -

Better Don do 小动作 again ..
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11.11.2008

2008-11-10T12:52:00.000-08:00

REPOST - Edited

times To " Setup" myself xD

1st >> Hair ? ( Cut ? ) << Yes dOne .

2nd >> Face ? ( buy some cream ? ) << Yes Done.

3rd >> Wearing ? ( Shirt ? Pants ? )<< In Progress

4th >> Shoes ? ( sport shoes ? ) << In progress - -"

5th >> Spec ? ( do a new spec ..? )<< In progress - -"

6th >> debt ? ( little little bit lo ) << In Progress

7th >> gam fei ( /yes ) << In PRogress

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frOm tOday Start...

I wont be sohai anymore

I will leave this word from now .

That wOrd Is " SOHAI "

=)

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tOday 1 Of my best frined suspect me ...

Suspect me what ?

suspect me Steal Other ppl 's Hp >> K770i

I gOt Nothing to say about it ..

However... i will STILL Treat yOu as 1 Of My best friend

=)

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A ppl will find u if they want to find u .

A fOrce or beg is useless even you c them will only Hate.

Let it Natural.

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My 1st Time marry in game = = >> XDO

ShishenxJackiex Qq_Honeybb

Recently Listening ----> aKon Feat Kardinal - Dangerous

02.11.08

2008-11-01T11:53:00.000-07:00

31.10.08

i go titanium dance club..

Joined VincentXD aKa VXD 's graduation .. of being a officially DJ

o.o

here some photo ~

me and Dj Gangjaguru

DJ VXD aKaVincentXD

i don really know how to called this .. flaming lamboghrini ?

lol.. was so relax on this event ...

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Now playing: 给我一首歌の时间

31.10.08

2008-10-30T13:26:00.000-07:00

5.05am ...

during i waiting sushio and biibiik4r0 .. go g cheong gai eat 粥...

i suddenly think This Game >> Kingdom Heart II ...

lol Long time already lo this game i play at ps 2 ... i still remember .. i borrow my friend's PS 2 to play this game ...

Is that Royston ? I think is royston borrow me his PS 2 to play Kingdom Hearts II ..

then i remember .. The ending of Kingdom Hearts II ... about the Next episode .. Kingdom Heart III - Birth By Sleep

Intro 1 song to u all ... >>> Kingdom Hearts II Dearly Beloved & Dearly Beloved -Reprise

Search at google.com then youtube.com fOr this OST =D

Here the web site Of KH 2 >> http://na.square-enix.com/games/kingdomhearts/kh2/

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goona marry at online games already lol .. also my 1st online game to marry =.=

will have more pic from xdo upload ... xD

24.10.08

2008-10-23T15:07:00.000-07:00

o.o

reply to b4bysiiaozz ~~

eat maggie mee le .. already long time jor de ..

seriously .. i also hope i can kurus .. = =

but i now still so fat haiz .. = =

i kurus ? u hOw LOng didnt see me jor ?

lol

ok la anyways .. thx for linked =)

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自从你知道了。。我写的都是关于你。。

说真的。。你对我有改变了。。。

真的比之前的多。。。对我都没有像以前那样。。

没有以前的那种冷淡。。

我还是有疑问。。。到底。。这是机会？还是。。？

不过。。我对你。。还是有那种的距离。。

其他的。。就不说了。。。我知道的。。只是不要说比较好吧?

- LoNeLy - *~[Jackie] + ` _a[k]a_Jackie02050 rOyaLJamMeR ShIsHeNxJackiex

孤独的音乐使者 † 弑神の音乐使者 †

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19.10.08 edited at 24.10.08

2008-10-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

times To " Setup" myself xD

1st >> Hair ? ( Cut ? )

2nd >> Face ? ( buy some cream ? )

3rd >> Wearing ? ( Shirt ? Pants ? )

4th >> Shoes ? ( sport shoes ? )

5th >> Spec ? ( do a new spec ..? )

6th >> debt ? ( little little bit lo )

7th >> gam fei ( /yes )

8th >> dOn knOw yeT - -

I don know still got what - - Temporary write this dulu =.=

hmm... Is there a Starting .. ? i wonder .. aiz.. let it ba ..

Love ? Or Like ? Or .. ? i don know ..

waiwai aKa 1 Of my best Fren's opinion

惠。 says:1st- gao dim ur debt sin

惠。 says:2nd- debt

惠。 says:oni allocate a part for tht

惠。 says:if not enuf then wait nxt time

惠。 says:dun go use all when got $$

惠。 says:settle the basic thing sin

惠。 says:make sure u can eat everyday

惠。 says:= =

惠。 says:dun nxt time come tell me u eat maggie everyday

惠。 says:i sure hantam u 99

惠。 says:if really nid

惠。 says:hair n shirt is ok de

惠。 says:the others man man lai

惠。 says:-o-

swt.. maggie mee is when i 15 years old de lo .. >.< anyways =")

15.10.08

2008-10-14T09:23:00.000-07:00

11p.m

刚才要出来的时候突然下起了大雨= = 还打雷== !!!

最近的你。。对我忽冷忽热的。。然我很难猜测你到底在想什么。。

不知不觉开始对你有好意。。开始的想念你。。

不知道什么时候开始的。。= =

但是我明明知道是和你没有可能的。。但是。。我想知道。。你会不会给我一次机会？。。

我会试着满足你的一切=)

10.10.09

2008-10-10T11:37:00.000-07:00

i go that place already 10days lo...

this job quite sien .. - - nothing do ~~

don say so much jor xD intro a song ..

my tou dai >> KinChoong intro me 1

i hear this song at his car xD so nice .. i so like this song xD

歌词

失落非主流歌手:周杰伦专辑:魔杰座

☆失落非主流
JaY ChOu☆
☆魔杰座☆

☆曲/JAY
编曲/micel Lin☆

☆永爱杰伦☆

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻

我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了

继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你呢

而你断断续续唱着歌假装没事了

时间过了走了爱情面临选择你冷了倦了我哭了

一开始都不快乐你用卡片纸写着有些爱只给到这

真的痛了怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得你不懂了说好的幸福呢我错了泪干了放手了后悔了只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了我都还记得

你不懂了说好的幸福呢我错了泪干了放手了后悔了只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..

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01.10.08

2008-09-30T13:13:00.000-07:00

Long time didnt update lo ...

2molo start wOrk le .. will very very very Less OnLine le ...

Say to my mui >>>> SleepyPanda8 aKa Irene .. Happy belated birthday oo >.< Sorry Late wish u T^T

what a tired day ... i already 2 day didnt sleep didnt rest and ... didnt eat .. lol ... tOday i meet Jack ( Jie hao ) .. He Say me kurus jor a bit wOr xD and .. my tou dai lui also say me kurus jor =.= really de mou ar? i kurus jor ?

Hmm.. Kazaaf Asked me to help him pass O2Jam AC Server Lv 63 mission .. Lv 17 song sudden ring 70% cool ... but .. i cant pass .. cause of .. the pc got bug = = long note suddenly very fast down ... cant catch x.x

aiz... today Lucky got ppl pei me chat at msn .. if not sure sien sei me jor ..

Played o2Jam Few song .. I feel my Long note skill improved ... but .. still die at Electro Fantasy HD Long Note .. - - cant pass this song T^T

5.30am ... starting feel a bit blur blur .. and tired .. uncomfortable .. whole day keep " ha chiew " aiz - - very suffer .. and my mouth .. don know what thingy at my mouth .. make me cant eat .. - - even drink water also suffer .. will sakit =.= ...

aiz ... why so near that place de ? why ... ? wish that ... if got chance and fate meet each other .. i wish u forget me =) and cant recognize me .. if i saw u .. i also will treat u like transparent .. >.<>.<

And ... To Qq_honeybb ... aiz .. u didnt online today .. i wanna say to u .. those days .. i really very happy ... with u .. really happy .. thanks giving those happy memory ...

ok la .. this time write till here ... That's all ...

19.09.08

2008-09-19T15:23:00.000-07:00

aiz... ok la ok la = = this time i write english de ok @@? Since got ppl complain =P

Write in english ar.. i also don know what can i write - -

Just wanna told someone who ... may be wont see this blog .. or u got see i also don know .. but .. i just wanna tell euu ...

If u feel that right ... just go ahead for it ... and .. Farewell .. i will leave it =)

That's all ..

ByeBye - Mariah Carey.mp3

08.09.2008

2008-09-07T15:43:00.000-07:00

once again ~ How Long i didnt update this .. cacat thing blog =.=?

aiz... 最近.. 觉得我很失败... 为什么我这么说.. ? 终觉得..我这生人.. 一事无成..

在我15岁开始就一个人...也没有靠过家庭...当然... 家庭有问题才自己一个人出来生活的...

到现在19岁人了... 什么都没有.. 还要靠着朋友帮我.. = = ..

别人问我... 你现在有什么打算? 我的答案就是... 我真的不知道.. 我有什么打算.. 什么目标之类的...

最近也从槟城的朋友听到他们说关于我的家庭的事... 好像是只差我一个就一家团结了...

他们还有问起我... 几时有回槟城? .. 说真的.. 现在我不是不想回去.. 只是好像..... 我也不知道怎么说..

习惯了一个人吧? 还是.. 不像回到那个地方..?

这些问题又头痛了= ="

目前喜欢的音乐...

Air_TV_-_Natsukage_-_Background_Version.mp3

That Truth That U Leave ( 自创)

我是一个失败者....

28.08.2008

2008-08-27T15:12:00.000-07:00

what's a day .. 28 of 08 of 2008 years ~

tOday go TS see Movie With Kinchoong and Sushio ..

1st movie is >>> MeeT D@ve ~~

2nd movie is >>> Don mess With zohan ~

then about watch till 6.30pm .. and i didnt sleep from ytd night till that time =.=

Then we back sri petaling ... before back sri petaling we bring Kinchoong back home and take bath then continue To sri petaling ..

what is our Dinner? guess?

LOL ~~ Is.... Bakuteh !!! xD haha

Kinchoong treat ^^ .. at here .. Thx to Kinchoong ~ and .. 学着面对眼前的一切... 还有.. 时间是最好的疗伤药.....

Serisouly .. i really didnt sleep 2 days =.= Now is 3rd day already ~

今天就写到这里吧...

08.08.08

2008-08-08T15:10:00.000-07:00

Today is ... 08.08.08 O.O ....

Nice day ? xD

Ok .. some thing happen today .. = = ... really nice xD Don know is 幸运還是不幸运 ~

ok .. today i sleep till 1pm something .. then wake up .. and then .. continue .. sleep again .. = =

then 5pm something ... i was Shocked .. why ? Cause.. someone with vivaboyz .. come to my house and .. wake me up lol .. that time .. i was ... wearing .. the sleeping suit with a 短裤? short panty = =...

ok then .. cause .. already 2 days .. we say must go TS .. why go TS huh? Cause... i was going to get back my last time's salary .. i wonder .. anyone still remember i work at TS before? =x

ok ... we 3 ppl go till there... and then direct go Lang Shoes gallery .. and ask for my last time's salary .. but they said.. some problem occured .. asking me to wait until monday .. then go again .. -_-" here to say sorry to someone .. but i think that ppl also wont visit my this blog .. i'm sure You wont visit =x .. sorry ah loong = = Delayed =x

ok then .. What happen at next ?

received a phone .. from Thiam Kee ( Shin Alikato aKa BiibiiK4ro )

He tell vivaboyz ( VIP Summer-Luv )

The conversation like below ..

Thiam Kee = T
Vivaboyz = V

T: Eeh .. Come help me .. my car bang already ...

V : U wait me i later come help You ( That time was 6pm something )

T: faster come le .. i very sien ..

don know is called how many times already .. T called To V again ... ( Time is 0808pm already)

T: Eeh .. faster come le .. lim pek's car tayar bocor la .. diu .. cepat mari la ..

V : HAR ? !!! FTW ? Puta Madre ! ? Chicken Fuck ! ? I coming now la .. Sesak la ! tunggu jap Boss ! ( LOL I was together with Him xD )

T: U better fAster a bit i tell u .. I hou lan sien already ..

ok then ...

we reach thiam kee there .. and saw .. tayar bocor .. then we kap hand kap leg and help repair back the tayar .. then we back sri petaling .. during the road of back sri petaling .. I said something ...

Wow ... Today is a nice day ? Thiam Kee ... ur car Today bocor .. Then u know is what day ? Is 08.08.08 and then is at 08.08p.m LOL? Is that miracle or something ?

then we 3 inside was really LOL xD

haha ...

so what u did in 08.08.08 ???

haha ...

Ok ..
then .. at night .. i was online .. and 1 girl come msn .. she was use mic taslk to me .. she said ..

起身小夜尿咯~~

i reply ... =.="

Then She said ...

sorry

i reply .. LOL i was a bit moodly .. really don know why .. but give u like that say .. i suddenly mood change to nice a bit haha ..

then she said

Hehe then ma good lo

then the time was 0600am Something .. then i ask she to sleep .. cause she didnt from ytd night .. ..

then i said .. is that good night ? or good morning ? ...

then she said ... sure is good morning la ~~ ..

is that weird - -?

ok then that's all of my days ...

the Last thing of the day ..

bored ..

Listened song

Dearest.mp3 - ayumi hamasaki

My immortal.mp3

far away.mp3 - nickel back

06.08.2008

2008-08-05T13:13:00.000-07:00

04.14AM

starting write ... hmm.. LoOk Likes ... really Long time didnt update this blog ~.~ ... i don care got ppl come here to see or not =P but if got .. also is that 2 or 3 .. =D ... anyways .. this blog .. just Like keep all the thing Of myself ...

Err what to write ? ok ba ... Just now i about at 04.00am .. i login Friendster .. and accept Friend request ... then and reply ppl comment .. and .. i saw someone's Friendster .. hmm... and that friendster not much special .. but the background very ncie .. i like it ..

recently got some ppl around me .. Some person .. before me and that person not very knwoing each other .. but recently don know why .... someone who already i treat as in a " same team " ppl tell me .. take care of him .. cause he said .. he already know that ppl long time a go .. and ask me to take care of him .. he now campur with us .. sure got something weird.. he that ppl is where got benefit to him .. thn he will campur inside .. so .. now i also a bit like avioding together with that ppl ..

04.50am ...

Listening --- > OutSide World - Megara Vs DJ Lee .mp3

trying some programs .. ---> Style XP .. Change some themes to Look Like mac book ..

aizzz... more 12 days .. is already 1 years anniversary of me at KL le .. Thinking back that .. What i done .. What happen when i at KL .. and i did 1 thing .. i already 3 month didnt fxxking work already ..... got ppl asking me .. u didnt work ? didnt go find work ? how u life ? and u didnt work ..

truely ... i now is 依靠 my " teammate" .. is them .. support me .. help me ....

Now ... i already .. feel .. me are they de 包袱.. 给他们这么多麻烦... 也开始觉得... 不好意思面对着他们... 好像一个废人..

在这个地方也好像一段时间了... 是不是该...... 就说是.. 我离乡背井... 都有了4 年了... 也接触到.. 不同的人.. 不同的地方... 不同的眼光...

我在想... 我这身人... 什么事我最成功的?... 就以别的地方来想.... 不知道你们想到的.. 会不会是和我一样?....

我有什么专长？？还不是对那个不是人脑的东西。。电脑有那么少少的知识。。。还有的就是... 心理学?

05.26aM

Listening ....> I wanna Stand With you On a moutain / Truely Madly Deeply - savage garden .mp3

都没什么要写了...

真的真的谢谢你们... 帮过我的人.. 谢谢你们...

27.6.08

2008-06-25T15:42:00.000-07:00

Hmm.... Once again ... I jobless -_- "

but ..finding some jo near me now live de place ...

err = = don know what to wrong = =...

hmm.. just now .. see back those old post of my blog .. feel so happy =D .. so happy to have those memory .. grats to have chaxiu .. sushio .. kinchoong ... hongyew .. ah jooon .. VincentXD and some of they in my life ... and 1 person i wont forget .. waiwai ~~ haha .... many memory .. since i come KL .. Thx u all giving such nice memory to me ... =)

haiz.. nothing to write le ... at here ba .. Fullstop .. =)

17.6.08

2008-06-17T14:49:00.000-07:00

... 17.06.08 ... i wont forget this day ... i wont forget this year de this day .. i wont ... i wont ... T_T ...

why... why ... i now only reliazed .... i totally is a sohai ... i try to ... but ... now i wont le ... i really fang qing le ... just ... before de .. forget it ... u now also with .... just wish u happy with him ....

and .. if he today didnt pass by ... i also don know ... =) .... i cry again ... and again ... i weak .. ? uselesss .. ? ... T_T .....

10.6.08

2008-06-09T15:12:00.000-07:00

读着那些爱情故事..情不自禁的流下了眼泪.. 也渐渐的想起你...

我记得... 你问过我...

“ 如果我受了伤。。你还会不会收留我？ “

我的答案。。就是。。我会。。。

那么我想问。。你的心里会不会留个位子让我居住。。？

知道什么叫思念，原来，思念就一种可以让人莫名其妙地掉下眼泪的力量..

有一种幸福是有一个能让你不顾一切去爱"他"一辈子的人。

有一种幸福是有一个能让你不顾一切去爱"她"一辈子的人。

...

09.06.08

2008-06-08T18:27:00.000-07:00

在 07.06.08 去了summit 帮我徒弟(asakurahao LHM5566 )打气.. 他进了 XDO Final competition .. 最后拿了第5名 ... 不错了啦...

哎.. 很累啊... 三天没睡了... 但是昨天睡了16个小时也是那么的累.. 开始觉得我有点懒了...

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最近心情不是怎么好。。。 = = 而且也很容累。。。休息了很久的时间。。还是会累。。。

不知道第一次见面。。那个感觉是如何？

我怎么变得没有勇气了= =？那么小胆的？

算了。。。很烦。。。很多东西烦。。。

还有想不到。。她是这样的人。。。真的是另眼相看。。。

01.06.08

2008-05-31T12:40:00.000-07:00

搬家了。。。

几天没上网了。。。

最近有些不常见的朋友说我瘦了一些。。。＝＝不知道是不是真的。。不过不是一个人说。。是7 个全部这样说。。＝＝

不知道最近的你好不好。。。是有想你的。。但是。。。刚刚看了你的blog... 有点觉得我。。。是一个很sohai..。。什么都不说了。。。希望你快乐 =)

又要不见人了。。。。就这样吧。。。

19.5.08

2008-05-18T17:25:00.000-07:00

hoho...

i no at TS LANGShoesGallery work jor lo ..

hmm... going to pindah rumah lo .. this is 2nd time to pindah rumah at kl ..

Hmm... recently play what game ? since o2jam Closed. i play SDO-X ... IGN is ShishenxJackiex

Last 2 day Created Guild ... ~*O2JaMmeR*~ .. haha? at xdo create o2jammer guild ? funny ?

Bored Life? used To it ....

03.00am

yam cha with Ah gong ( Haseo) , Baby_Criszy and his Bf -[zZz]-JunZai ( If i not rmb wrong )

JohnCow ( tou dai ) , Biibiimaro ( tou dai also ) ... chat till about 4.30am ++ ... then ah gong buy thing to his bro .. then send crisz back home .. and i with johncow and junzai and haseo come eclipse cyber cafe .... haseo and junzai show me few round with reversed 8 key .. .. reversed 8 key for me is very hard >.< .. hard to train ..

0617am...

Chat with LHM5566 ( tou dai ) aka Asakurahao at msn ... then Chat with Kinchoong ( tou dai ) ...

wow x.x

4 tou dai totally together meet in 1 day .. lol....

08.27am...

Just now .. was a bit mood down .. cause .. was thinking to settle those problem .. then ... at eclipse Cyber cafe .. online ... xdo...meet 1 nicely ppl... after chat with that ppl .. i feel better.. =)
thx you ... i will try my best to settle those thing ... really thanks you .. that ppl name in XDo is meimei Lv100 ...

Nothing much to say ... Just recently .. mood not so good.. a bit down ... Listening ...

concerto original mix - sanxion 7

bei pan - gary

ren zhi - zhong wei

03.05.2008

2008-05-02T16:05:00.000-07:00

wah =.= long time no updatejOr = = hehe .. so .. ytd fren helped found a job for me .. so later interview then terus work @@ Place? at TS LOL what kind of job ? Sell shoes O.o new exp =D nvr sell shoes before ....

有时候，明明知道爱上那个人是个错，却还是死心踏地地爱了！有时候，明明知道自己这样做是不好，却还是执迷不悟的做了！有时候，明明知道他的心已不在你这，却还是心肝情愿的把心给了！有时候，明明知道这条路很艰辛，却还是跌跌撞撞的过了！有时候，明明知道自己的心在难过，还是勉勉强强的笑了！有时候，明明知道他已经不在爱你了，却还是习惯性的写信息给他了！有时候，明明知道自己不能再这样下去了，却还是不由自主的哭了！有时候，明明知道这份爱不能再继续了，却还是把心留给他了！这，就是爱情的模样－－其实去喜欢一个人也是一种学习，不对吗？如果真心付出，就该无遗憾，才算真正的。在年轻的时候，你一定要温柔对待你的爱情，因为在年老时，你酱只会记得这温柔其实爱你的心没变过~ 不知道你还爱我吗？还是你的心里有了另一个你心爱的人呢?～～～……………～～～用尽一生的爱换来一生的伤有时即使无奈人生却是悲哀痛苦紧跟身边欢喜却不到来难道注定失败永远没有未来终于开始明白爱一个人好难你觉得呢？

hmmm... see my toudai blog for more detail of penang trip =)

07.04.08

2008-04-06T18:18:00.000-07:00

hmm~ when i Saw this ... i was O_O !

Dear Players,

We wish to inform that eGames Global Sdn. Bhd. has been placed under Receivership with effect from 19 March 2008. In connection with the receivership, the continued provision of online gaming services for RAN Online, Supreme Destiny and O2Jam hosted by the Company by discontinued at anytime hereafter without any prior notice.

On behalf of
The Receivers and Managers
eGames Global Sdn Bhd
(Receivers and Managers Appointed)

And This From Malaysia O2Jam GM

Dear all O2Jammers,

It is sad to say that i'm resigning my current post as a O2Jam GM because i have found a better job prospect in another gaming company. So today, is my last day. I would want to inform you guys sooner but it'll probably cause an uncontrollable mass hysteria, which i like not to happen. Although i haven't been communicating in the forums as much as a few months ago, due to me being busy handling O2Jam by mostly of myself but I'm glad to have met a large potion of dedicated O2Jammers, so who knows, perhaps you may see me in my new job

FYI, the game servers will still be active and someone else will take over my place soon, so you guys better not bully the new guy and behave, yeah? :P

To all the mods,

Thank you for all your help to maintain the forums, even putting your efforts to upload song files for the rest of the O2Jammers. I really appreciate with all your help. I have not made the wrong choice of choosing you guys and i never regretted it. :D

So in trusting you guys, i have PM certain members/mods my personal MSN for future contacts. :D

If any of you like to contact me in my personal MSN, just PM me in the forums.

that pokai mesata leave us at o2jam = = ... i rmb he is a guy who like beer lol ...

aiz...

No ppl continue handle e-games company ... that means no more o2jam ? OMFG? T___T

sei lo = = no jor malaysia o2jam = no life = =

malaysia o2jam is the 1st online game i played with 4 years ++ support jor so long .. then now .. aiz ...

really nothing to say about it .. .. may be don know hwo to start to say about o2jam lol

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u ask me .. i still love u or not .. and u don wish to end our love like that .. but .. i really don feel u are serious and care about this relation .. u just like ... i don know how to say la ..

30.3.2008

2008-03-29T18:56:00.000-07:00

Recently what am i doing ? I am additced To Devil May Cry 4 ~ TT I Like this Game So Much .. Since form devil may cry 3 ~ aiz... But it was on ps 3 ... Only The game disc also Rm 210 ++ .. I am thinking to buy that .. but ... Fren ask me don siao about it .. don go buy .. what can i do =/ T_T

Here Some Video Of My 2 tou dai playing ( Kinchoong & LHM5566)

* 19.03.2008 *

2008-03-18T11:20:00.001-07:00

和自己说生日快乐。。。又一年了... 感觉好像不开心的...

17.3.2008

2008-03-16T16:35:00.000-07:00

17号。。。

在16号~ 早上就接到我的 "徒弟" ---> kinChoong 在msn 和我说。。说今天下午会来我工作的网咖找我。。。大概两点多他就到了。。我那个时候。。还在和周公下棋中。。 = =

就到4点多才到网咖找他~ 对不起哦== 让你等我那么久==

然而。。在6点多。。无端端的给人骂了一餐白的。。都无理头的。。

就是为了有人会 Unlock Cyber Cafe Locking system 。。。现在有人会很出奇？有很多种方法的好不好？而且不是只有我一个人会而已？难道别的人不会吗？不知道他在想什么的。。就一开头就骂我。。骂我不是不可以。。但是为了这样的东西来骂我？可以关掉Cyber Cafe Locking system 都很容易而已。。不知道他是不是没有看到现在的人是怎样的？或许他没有看过别间cc是怎样的。。我最不爽的原因是什么你知道吗？是无端端的被骂。。被冤枉。。从头到尾就这样说我而已。。指责是我。。全部都是无厘头！不知道是不是没看过外面的世界是怎样的？为什么你不去骂microsoft ? 有一个software 也是 microsoft 那里可以download的！？

在晚上又不知道怎么和一个。。知心聆听者吵架。。本来开头说着说着没什么的。。我就和她说今天发生的事情。。聊着聊着。。不知道怎么聊到吵架。。也是无端端的吵起来。。之前每次她生气我我都会低头认错和好。。但是这次就不会了。。不知到是怎样了。。。很累啊。。

在这里和你说对不起。。。要生气我也没办法。。我都是到处得罪人。。

13.3.2008

2008-03-12T21:29:00.000-07:00

原来喜欢和爱还是有分别的...
当你站在你爱的人面前，
你的心跳会加速，
当你与爱人四目交头，
你会害羞；
但当你站在你喜欢的人面前时，
你只感到开心，
当你与喜欢的人四目交头，
你只会微笑；
当你和爱的人对话，
你会觉得难以启齿，
当你爱的人哭，
你会陪她/他一起哭；
而但当你和喜欢的人对话，
你可以畅所欲言，
当你喜欢的人哭，
你会技巧性的安慰她/他；
当你不想再喜欢一个人，
你只要掩住耳朵；
但当你不想再爱一个人，
你却要闭上眼睛
并忍住泪水......
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男孩，不轻易哭泣，
只有面对最爱的人，才会放下自尊...

女孩，不轻易哭泣，
只有在太爱一个男孩的时候，
才会变得脆弱...

男孩，
如果有个女孩为你哭泣，请不要放弃她，
也许一个选择会毁掉一个人

女孩，
如果有个男孩为你哭泣，
请拉着他的手，
他真的可以陪你走完一生...
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摘不到的星星总是最闪亮的，
但是很多人一旦摘到...遇到了...
却不懂得珍惜...
世上的感情事就是那么矛盾...
摘不到的星星总是最闪亮的，
错过的电影总是最好看的,
失去的情人总是最懂我的...
世界上错过的就再也不回来...
好好珍惜你所爱的人和爱你的人...
想说的话不要藏在心里，
因为你不说出来
永远不会有人知道...
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当你等巴士时来了一辆巴士...
你也许会说：
这巴士好满噢，我等下一辆！
又来了一辆...
你也许看了又说：
好旧噢，一定不舒服的！
再来了一辆...
你也许会说：
没冷气噢，天气却很热！
最后来了一辆有冷气的...你却也没上车...
因为你在担心空调太冷冻到你...
到最后，你搭不到巴士，回不了家...

在爱你的人出现时，
你往往不珍惜反而挑剔...

不要再犹豫了！
喜欢就说出口！
不要等错过了才来后悔...

I Love de where r u .. more 6 days ~ =)

24.2.08

2008-02-23T11:57:00.000-08:00

。。。

3.57am

。。。

突然的想起你。。。

想给信息你。。但是当我拿着电话。。。看这那熟悉的名字。。。

又不知道要和写什么。。。

不知道这几天你怎么了。。。

你最近还好吗？

我好想念以前的你。。。。

最近电话也安静了好多。。。

终是期待着你的信息。。。

那名字。。还会吗？

我想你。。。。

17.2.08

2008-02-16T18:00:00.000-08:00

Bay MashiMaro Kc <<< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ibTDbjuximQ/R7ebuMaOL1I/AAAAAAAAAKk/s7gGBbBeXag/s1600-h/DSC00285.JPG">

Bay ( Lui) Tomomi88 ( ah ma ) MashiMaro ( Zai ) <<< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_ibTDbjuximQ/R7ebu8aOL2I/AAAAAAAAAKs/O8xvrG7bp-4/s1600-h/DSC00288.JPG">

yo ~~ Subbeh And SushiorOx

5gdwss ( O2jam Shirt ) belibeli23 / o2shenrine LOL ( Pink shirt ) AaroonLee520 ( Jacket )

16.2.08 O2Jammer Gathering at Sunway pyramid ~

Sushio And Me ( JAckie02050) Lan c == ? 是不是看了想打我? ==

Kc: don fan me sms ar `~~~~

Jackie02050 BiiBiimaro Sushio ~~~

Sushi playing dota LOL

Jammer's Jamming ~

Biibiimaro : I FC R3 Give u see Jackie ~~ @@!

Hongzai / O2Crystals : See Me Sapu they all la /gg xD

O2jam Jammer Gathering 16.2.08

Toccate Fugse Wearing 2005 years o2jam shirt

2005 years O2Jam World Championship Malaysia !!! ... I want This Shirt ar !!!!!!

WAH !!!! I 7 years didnt eat A&W jor ar TT ... Finnaly at sunway pyramid that day i eat dao le !!!! so happy ar

those Jammer Doing what there O_O?

HyperBeam WEating Black Spec O.O ? Yeng mou ? xD

hohoho.... waow == really long time didnt write blog lo....

since last time that bloggy until now .. i think also got 1 month ++ lo ? is that ?

hmm ... recently happen many thing also .... and something too suddenly ...

其实每当我想写的时候.. 不是没心情就是不知道写什么....

有几次都是开了.. 当时都无文下章....

这个月里.. 真的是来也匆匆..去也匆匆... 在15.2.08 .. 我真得差一点点就失去了一个曾经在我大难当前帮我的兄弟...brader....

就那么一句话.. 就可以在我们的友情上画上句号... 是永远...... 就因为你那么一句话.. 我得累就情不自禁的流下....

好了...

16.2.08~~

err.. about ytd that gathering ar ... haha .. not so well la actually .. = = we all said is skating de .. but at last also didnt go for skate .. just after take lunch together then go cc jamming already .... How is the gathering ? Failed? Or.. ? Anyone comment and give some suggest who got joined == i know is very sux .. let me get some experience lo ... >.<

LoNeLyBoca :

| LoNeLy | -*l~[MissBoca]+l` _a[K]a BocaDendeng - says:

aiyo

| LoNeLy | -*l~[MissBoca]+l` _a[K]a BocaDendeng - says:

ytd gathering not bad la

| LoNeLy | -*l~[MissBoca]+l` _a[K]a BocaDendeng - says:

everyone is happy =D

| LoNeLy | -*l~[MissBoca]+l` _a[K]a BocaDendeng - says:

=) make more gathering

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本来我们约好了在14.2.2008 情人节那天要在 xdo malaysia 里结婚的... 但是就出现了一些问题.. 所以就取消了.. 只好在选别的日期了...

虽然这几天... ... 情人节... 虽然我们不能一起过情人节.. 但是两个人是真心相爱.. 那么每一天也不就是情人节么? ^^

在你的friendster里写着

【-=ㄨ爱是自由的..受控制的爱情...我想彼此都会很不开心不幸福...毕竟你将绳子绑的太紧..最后还是会断..不把绳子松开点..对彼都好点ㄨ=-♂♀】
你真的可以愛一個人到永遠嗎？如果不能得話...就不輕易的把這句話説出口...
既然愛了就不要輕易的說放棄...能不能好好得很愛我不要丟下我一個人~~ =-]

我答应过你的.. 我会做到..

15.1.07

2008-01-14T14:39:00.000-08:00

~~

又好一段时间没写了....

最近的我都很好~... o2jam skill 也进步了xD

在这段时间里~ 我拿了两天假期回槟城... 9.1.08~10.1.08

回到那里的感觉正好... 见到了我的几位 " 猪朋狗友 " xD 哈哈... 还带sushirOx 吃了一些槟城出名的

Air Itam laksa ~还有和我的 " bro " ---> CooLStitch 一起吃 Nasi Itik xD 鸭饭 ==

这就是 Rm3.00 的鸭饭 ==

SushiorOx 说: Laksa Rm 2.30 ? 我真的不相信!! 还有鸭饭既然 RM 3.00 而已.. 还有加饭==

这次他真正让他见世面什么叫做便宜又好吃==

我可以为了一个 KEYBOARD 从KL 回槟城拿... 就为了那个 Lan c 我的人... 然而有了这个绝版的Keyboard... Clicker ... 你放心好了.. 我说过的话我会做到... 最不喜欢看小和看低我的人了...

Stitch Puzzle ~

可愛嗎? xD

Jackie02050 a.k.a LoNeLyJackie 淫魔Sushio aka SushiorOx CooLStitch aka BabySpyro ~

这是我们在Queensbay mall 三个人的照片~ 像三兄弟?

restaurant 龙的传人~

哈哈... 上一次好像有说到我有新的称呼吗? 就是牛奶仔~^^ .... 有牛奶仔当然有牛奶妹咯~~ xD

她就是我的dear lo ^^ ~~

xdo : ShIsHeNxJackiex <3 [Milk]

28.12.07

2007-12-27T11:40:00.000-08:00

waow ~~~ i so long didnt write blog blog lo ~~

tOday suddenly got feel wrting blog nehx xD

不知不觉。。有一段时间咯~ 我真的走出了那个地方~ 我不会在等待了

所有的一切都是借口。。。

就让它去吧~ Hope You happy horx ~~~

ok ... 最近有发生什么事？哇~ 多咯~

我在O2Jam de Guild 越来越多人了。。。也越来越出名~ 很多人都知道~ 纷纷的加入~

在21.12.07 的 o2jam 聚会。。。有70% 都是 LoNeLy Guild 的人==

LoNeLy Guild rOx ~~~

也没什么要写的。。。。最近我O2jam 也没玩了。。。很少啦。。今天刚刚有一个新的 O2 dear =x hehe ^^ 我不会多说。。我想你也知道我的人是怎样了吧？

这是在 24th countdown xMas 当天 spray de xD LoNeLy ~~~~

LoNeLy guild pic ~ and 3 rOx member ~

LoNeLy Guild member pic ~~

Malaysia's O2jammer Smiles ~

还有~~ jiayee92 我在这里猪你身日快乐~~~ 28.12 ~ HappyBirthday呀=）

没什么写了。。。。

希望新的一年。。。。。我会比较好过。。 get a better life ...

miss you Milkgirl89 xD

my new nick ~ MilkteabOy89 ~~

huyiyi ~ i Jackie02050 at here .. wish u happy all the way .. and .. relax urself .. don think too much =)

12.12.07

2007-12-11T15:07:00.000-08:00

好像好久。。没有写了。。。

在这几天里。。发生了很多事。。

也见到了在马服O2Jam 女生最强的一位 Jammer... rOxTeam... Kirtues..她真的好口爱哦~

哎。。没什么心情写的。。。

我九天了。。。。我问我自己。。这样有用吗？

避开是方法吗？前天。。和sushio谈天。。又不知不觉。。流泪。。。觉得我自己好没用。。那么容易就哭。。

我都在问。。。我在这个世界上。。是为什么？

什么目的？目标呢？

现在是不是我啊？ Jackie02050 ? 你有跑去了哪里。。。

有没有人可以帮我找Jackie02050 ..? 他又不知道跑到哪里了。。。

忘记吗？还是留着回忆？。。

我不知道。。我不想。。我不是这么冷淡的。。。

你最近还好吗？。。。

当我看到。。。我真的有些心痛。。。真的。。。

希望。。你和他。。幸福快乐。。

好了。。。不在乎天长地久。。。只在意曾经拥有。。

这几天在听。。

斗牛要不要歌手：Tank

斗牛要不要用骄傲单挑承认你弱就快点逃

斗牛要不要这地盘我要你现在还来得及逃

场上的节奏跟着我的脚步走过我冷静从容
掌控这个宇宙你以为在跟谁打篮球我左右换手
灌篮性的突破我这种打法不是你能够防守不是你能够防守
你别在我的面前现丑轻轻划过我的球一声破网 2分球我的对手不用感到失落篮球
这种天分你没有想跟我决斗你还要练练球我生而为王胜利是我的王后
你别妄想能够打败我

斗牛要不要用骄傲单挑承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛要不要这地盘我要你现在还来得及逃
斗牛要不要用骄傲单挑承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛要不要这地盘我要你现在还来得及逃
场上的节奏跟着我的脚步走过我冷静从容掌控这个宇宙你以为在跟谁打篮球我左右换手灌篮性的突破我这种打法不是你能够防守不是你能够防守你别在我的面前现丑轻轻划过我的球一声破网 2分球我的对手不用感到失落篮球这种天分你没有想跟我决斗你还要练练球我生而为王胜利是我的王后你别妄想能够打败我
斗牛要不要用骄傲单挑承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛要不要这地盘我要你现在还来得及逃
斗牛要不要用骄傲单挑承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛要不要这地盘我要你现在还来得及逃
~ END ~

还有。。。

你最近还好吗 - S.H.E

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗是不是也在思念里挣扎

你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗是不是也在思念里挣扎

你说会记得我还记得吗你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我快向快乐出发

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05.12.07

2007-12-04T21:01:00.000-08:00

28.11.07 -05.12.07

都有了8天了。。。。有时候还是不时会想起。。但是就告诉自己。。过了就过了。。让它去。。。

但是。。还是会一点点。。。不知道现在的你怎么样。。我记得你好像有参加什么营的。。

我。。已经三天没真正的睡了。。。不过还很精神的。。

昨天半夜，夜深人静。。我才睡了一下。。

最近。。来了一个新同事。。人为很好。。还和我分享了很多经验。。也交流了很多东西。。。

我也在最近收了第一个妹妹。。别名为。。優醬。。口爱又美丽的~

本来的我。。都不想有任何姐姐妹妹弟弟哥哥的（不是亲生的）。。優醬妹~ 应该觉得很幸运吧 xD

好了。。。没什么灵感的。。也不知道要写什么了。。现在听着

Qlimax 2006 - Showtek liveset.mp3/ pute marde- Showtek

28.11.07

2007-11-27T18:12:00.001-08:00

hmm....

昨天晚上晚上玩o2jam ... 退步的好多。。。根本就不是Jackie02050....

正的看了都" ngan yuan " ...

哎。。。 “你“又跑去了哪里啊？。。。

昨晚看见你。。。你好像比前几天好多了。。。看见你开心。。我也渐渐的好很多了。。。

不知道你会不会看。。
但是。。你开心就好。。 =）

我也醒了。。还是会时不时的看电话。。信息铃声响起。。我想不用说了吧。。当然不是那个名了。。。我还是很想念那个名。。。

这首 Black winter 是我最近最喜欢的一首 Trance ... 每次和SushiorOx一起听。。一定很开心。。哈哈。。为什么呢？因为。。有几个部分。。我们都作了一些手势 xD ... 有改版的。。 White Winter -LoNeLyJackie FeAT SushiorOx

想要就和我拿吧。。。

还有。。谢谢那个在O2Jam 陪伴我的人。。。 DsineyNiNi aka Zharukoz 谢谢你安慰我 =)

25.11.07 ~ 27.11.07

2007-11-26T18:50:00.000-08:00

这几天我在做什么？

都在玩无聊的 Ragnarok OnLine ..

整个人都神不守舍的。。

好像失去了自我。。

想要想东西也想不到。。。

头很痛。。

我在哪里啊？跑去了什么地方？

有时候。。。看着那些照片。。不知不觉的眼泪。。。不禁得起得流下。。

还有。。。昨天。。。经过曾经去过的地方。。

想起。。那天。。。 LRT 。。。 KTM 。。 bukitJalil。。

已经4天了。。。

>.<

24.11.07

2007-11-23T16:04:00.001-08:00

22.11.07-23.11.07

2007-11-22T12:48:00.001-08:00

今天。。不知道为什么。。不知不觉的流泪。。

到底。。是为了什么？有一个人。。和我说。。。

“ 以前我看到朋友哭我很羡慕，可是我怎么逗我自己怎么弄我自己我的眼泪都流不出，总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福，能够把满腔的无奈满腔的痛苦让泪水带走。。。“

“ 最苦是泪水啃在心头流不出，就像要爱却不懂怎么去爱。。要自己哭过后才明白。。流过泪的眼睛将生命看得更清。。楚。。。只有真正懂得付出的人才懂得何为哭为何哭。。再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱，心会痛，心也会感动~。。只有曾经真心付出的人才懂得何为哭为何哭“

其实。。在晚上。。都说清楚了。。。都是某一些事情。。才会这样对我。。。自己也不明白为什么会这样。。并不是所想的。。

电视台里在点播唱烂的情歌我一个人开着车经过约会福利社想起你的轮廓假装你都还在这路旁一堆垃圾提醒我的爱都已下课我对你付出从来不搁浅以为爱可以收割你却对着我说
baby no no no no
哭笑不得我又能如何走的理由竟然先假设
哭笑不得个性不合你想看我到底有多难过
哭笑不得非走不可你想感受难分与难拾
哭笑不得唱起情歌才能深刻感受到我真的拿你没辄

18.11.07 ~ 21.11.07

2007-11-20T13:30:00.000-08:00

yoo hooo ~ .... 19th ~ Sushio bro's Birthday ~~ !!! xD at here Say Happy BiRdday to You Ar bro !!! ~! wakakakka ~! xD

Damn Muther futher= = In the morning ... I work finsh and back home ... during i bath .., I Am 1st time to Put my Hp K800 At the pocket ... Mahai ar.. When i want take it out form pocket .. It Jatuh dalam into the 水桶 there swimming -.- " Then masuk air .. ... Then I Fastly Call my Work mate Named Jack .. bring me go Cool generations Hp Shop repair ... Then AFter repair .. And it Cost Rm 20 .. x.x I am pokai season .. >.< ... Then ok lor .. Repair liao then ok jor .. But At Night ... i was Want to Take Pic ... Then !! ... When i capture .. The red xeon light got out .. But That flash light didnt appear -_-'' ... My K800 = 废物 ... K800 Cant Take Photo ? FTW !? GRR....AR .... .. And .. My hp Battery Usage Damn FAst ... in 10 mins use jor 4 % ... .. haih = = now already http://www.pokai.com.my/ liao la ... now somemore Hp rosak ... .. i asked jor .. fix is can fix... but need to give them for few day to test ... But .. got 1 ppl Sure Cant allow me ... >.<>

and ... 19th .. i go Mid Valley 2 times in 1 day = = 1st time go is with my dear dear xD

then when i going back to sri petaling.. Then go My Working's CC Zone X .. find sushio they all .. .. When i and My dear dear Go in The CC.. = = They saw we 2 hold hand hand .. Those all ppl Shout : " WooooooooWWWOoooWWW Jackie~~!!! ... == Make We 2 So paiseh >.<"

then they tell me They going Mid Valley agian -__-" That is really FTW = =

2nd and 3rd Time go mid valley in same day = = Tired sei me ... = =

me and dear dear buy jor 1 Present to sushio xD ~ very Cutettiiiieee Penguinnnnnn ~~ xD

When Sushio Get it .. He said : " Oh Man !! I am FuckIng Like This LOL " " Don see me 大个子我也很喜欢这些毛毛的东西的 " And 1 More " 做兄弟的有那个心就好了。。不用什么贵重礼物。。有心就好了。。"

Sushio .. Me Jackie here .. Got something say to u .. Really Thanks To u .. >.< ... But i know i also bring many problem to u .. = = Thx for u help me a lot .. Thx For U brader !!! T_T

^.^

so .. Here is Some Photo =D

LOL .. When i Sleeping .. Someone Snap Me Beside is LoNeLyBiiBii

Chaxiu : Wahahah o.o what make he laugh like that O_O!!

Kc ~~~ 你看那里啊 ~~!

Sushio VincentXD rOxChaxiuZai o.o

Sushio Holding that pengguiiinnn xD !!!~~~

Sushio Saying a Ppl " Lei gong hami " ? LOL saying Hookkkiennnn

Sushio onphone With winnie ~ ASkking her to Mid valley ~

rOxchaxiuzai Playing PSP ~

Kc : Don Look At Me O_O!!!

Kc : This Sppon And Fork Is Not Normal Size o.o?

Kc : Sei Jackie Take what Take huh @@?

Wakakak `~!! PPl Call me 西瓜王子 LOL !!!

Kc : Me Yeng Mou ?

Sushio Win me At the Watermeloon Competition 7 second to drink it all == I Lose Him = = Sorry brader i sudah tau takut liao LOL

4 CouPle Pic o.oV

Jackie Love Christy .. Ming Love Tomomi88

Chaxiuzai Love Chaxiului .. LoVE520Jam Love sushio

21.11.07.... midnight ... me and u happend jor something ... It's all is about me .. my fault .. i think too many ... really i think too much ...

i am really sad ... really really .. i cry ... FTW == I am 2nd time cry at Kl ....

Ah Yan aka DunkzzZz said : -♥♡ ~* DunKzZz*~ ♡♥ - says:u have no point to think so much, Just try to find a way to lets both of u walk longer~~~

en i know le .. thx for dunkzzz

This is Our LAst Time take at sushio's car ..

Dear .. i really Love You ... I'm Really Sorry About i done that ... really .. >.<

老婆。。。我爱你 I Love You !!!!! >.<

11.11.07 ~ 12.11.07

2007-11-12T18:56:00.000-08:00

Kc: Wakakak undang undang ~~ I want Put u inside steamboat Liao Then Eat u ~~ wakakka
Tomomi88 : Where is my 小麦草 T_T
Tomomi88 : Ah zai ~ why Take me T.T see make ah ma cry jor ~
Tomomi88 : Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! Finally Can Drink My 小麦草 Liao xD!!!!!
Kc: Laugh Till So Happy LOL !!!!

SteamBoat With 1800 temperature o.o
Kc : u all Don rampas !!! It'sIs Mine !!! i will GG This all ~~ wakakakka ~~~
Me Taking The Egg And Thinking To Throw Inside The Steamboat Give Sushio makan xD
Kc: Wakakka I wll Gg this in 10 mins wahahaha
SushiorOx : I So Miss Euu LoVe520O2jam T_T !!!!

Kc Like Very happy xD
chick Chiak !!! Tomomi88 : Take Me O.o? I take u also !!!
Sushio's Dark Raver 's caps

Tomomi88 : Take more pic of me ^.^v Steamboat de 超级辣椒酱 @@!

m3 Sushio And Kc .... Waiting LRT come lol Too tired xD
Tomomi88 Don take My pic !!! Sushio : I got my Dark Raven to protect my face =D
This pic kc take geh o.o
Tomomi88 : Don try to take my pic agian >.<
Tomomi88: U all so Like to Take my pic i take Video !!!! x.x

LOL ~~ This Is " Nia Ma Ice " XD

CoolStitch Give me de M Life Kb .. I like That tap tap tap Soundz T_T" AFter it Spoil I Lost the Feeling T_T Very noob jor T.T
Kc: Inside LRT Also Want take my pic o0o!!!
kc: Playing ez2djzz ? So pro o.o

Sushio : sei leng mui ( was wearing lolita ) 看什么看？ LOL !!!

hMm ~~ STart 2nd Blog xD
1st ... tOday What i'sve Done o.o? tOday i no sleep after i work =x haha xD

tOday work till 9a.m ~ then 3pm go Ts( Time Square ) with Sushio and Kc =D 埻掛 got ask rOxchaxiuzai together go geh ~ but he too tired then don want go jOr lo ~

When we reach Ts .. We go bread history buy jOr some Roti to makan xD That is For my wholeday 1st breakfast ~

Then we go lawyat that 香港小吃店 there eat that fish ball that day ate geh and we order 1 more Blackpepper Fish ball to test XD and Wait for Tomomi88( My Mom ) Come find us

When tomomi88 come find us Then sTill got 1 girl follow she together come ~ Guess is who o.o? that girl is silverices ~ We continue Go buy KB at lawyat ~

I was finding CoolStitch ( LoNeLyStitch) give me that M Life Kb T.T but i find jOr almost whole lawyat T.T also no have any M Life Kb ><"

Then me and Tomomi88 buy jOr genius kb xD Rm 20 per each .. then we take monorail From imbi to hang tuah ~ then form hang tuah take LRT back sri petaling ~

after we reach sri petaling .. KC , Tomomi88 , Sushio And me Go eat Steamboat ~

haih ... I... Is That i too easy to trust ppl.. ? I really Regret ... but .. all i want he to awake ... But ... Nvm ... I don care about that anymore ... I already help that ppl too many times .... but suan la ...
i don care about that .. Hope that ppl Good luck at his future life ..

Ahem .. Next Time I .. WRite About my recently de relationship xD hehe this time till here la ~~ buu buu ^^

And ... If U Saw this ... I just want euu to knOw ... I Love You =D

09.11.07

2007-11-09T17:31:00.000-08:00

This Is VenCentXD ~~ xD Sneak Him When inside LRT wakakka and he psp LOL

LOL ~ This Is VincentXD When after meet DJ GanJaguRu at StarBucks Drink -.-" Then nth do and take pic xD

LOL Terriost ? AT My CC = = Somemore Still Singing ( Apologize - Timberland )

DA Gip !!! Take aLl ur Ep To me He Said LOL
Wow ~~~ THis Fish ball ~ At Lowyat ~ ~~ RM 1.50 Only Very delicious ~ Manay ppl buy also ~

@@" ~~ This SushiorOx Most Like xD Very nice laso xD same place lowyat ~ Rm4.50 per 1

TEmporary WRite like this la xD P/S: Broken English Don blame Ar TT

haih.. ~ nothing do trying write 1 blog xD ~~

09.11.07 Mood okok lor ~ But a bit tired ... and Miss Someone T.T